10/24/2003 05:30:00 AM

haiz.... sad day again.... its started out quite well... woke up early in the mornin n went swimming wif my family... the main purpose is to play wif my nephew lor... turn up he doesnt like to be in the waters but he likes to play wif the water... had a hard time coaxing him to get into the waters... but luckily he like it in the end... ya... so it was damn tiring... den pg say tml mabbi not goin out too... sadz.. suppose to go out today.. but all not free so we change to tml... but she say she got training... think no need to go le...den after dat went westmall had sakae lor... wasnt feeling very well... so didnt eat alot lor... den went home n juz fell aslp straight... woke up wif a spliting headache n i think i'm abit burnt... so its the very hot feeling around me till now... didnt have dinner... mum cook some wanton.. but i'm not feeling very well... so ate a few onli... den its even more irritating when some 1 ask u to gif comments on certain things.. n after u gave ur comments he or she juz becomes so unhappy wif it n refuse to tok to u.... if u meant to get angry den y for ask for my comments... n i oredi told u i dun wan gif comments le u still wan me to gif... gif le now u dun even wanna tok to me... fine... i dun need to tok to this type of pple.... sucky pple around me... or mabbi i'm the sucky person who juz grumble at any1 around... i juz hate it... hate my life... hate myself.... i'm juz so useless n unwanted rite??? wats the pt of being in this world????

10/21/2003 09:08:00 AM

haiz... seems like everytime when i'm feeling so down den i will remember my blog.... so sad... but whenever i feel sad i dun feel like toking to anyone... the only way to make myself feel better is to type watever unhappiness i have into my blog lor.... haiz....dunno y juz feel so sad... think i'm suffering from depression... i realli think so... my classmates seem to have noticed dat i'm different from wat i usually will be... i think i've changed very long ago... juz dat no1 seems to notice it.... think i change for the worse.. haiz... i'm so sad... sometimes ir ealli feel so helpless, so useless, like the world has nothing meaningful for me to live on.... i dunno y i've become so pessimistic... but i cant help it... i juz hate myself... for everything... i'm juz like a rubbish... so unwanted n useless......

10/19/2003 07:55:00 AM

hello pple... come back update again.... alamak.. dunno wat wrong things i ate today... i got stomach upset....so sad... i juz slowly recovering from my illness... den now sick again... haiz... so suay 1 lor... but at least i did abit of work today.... n ya... i muz start to pia for A's le.... i'm scared oredi.... like not enuff time le... hopefully i can make it!!!! i muz try!!!!! hmm.. n ya.. to wendy... i noe u very sad these few days... but muz get over this asap... n get down to work... dun think so much le.. the more u think the more sad u will be.... so juz let go of wats gone... dun hang on to it... all ur frenz will be here for u girl!!! remember no matter wat we will always help u 1.... take care of urself k??? get well soon.... study hard to all Jc2s.... all the best.... luv ya all...=)